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Walking My Path Righteously in Difficulties and Hardships By a Dafa practitioner in China
(Clearwisdom.net) To avoid being arrested and persecuted I was forced to leave home for quite a
long period of time. Because I was busy doing Dafa work and had not organized my
time well, I had little time to study the Fa [law and principles]. Even
if I did study the Fa it was only a matter of form, so I did not achieve the
purpose of studying the Fa, which was to truly improve myself. As a result I
felt I was slipping further and further away from the Fa and I could not act in
strict accordance with the standards of a Dafa practitioner when problems arose.
I knew that I could not go on like that any longer for I would bring losses to
Dafa; however because of being busy with Dafa work, I was actually in a state
where I thought I could not do anything about it. One day in mid August, I was arrested after being tailed and was brought to a
district brainwashing center which was located in a concealed location. It was
on the third floor of a guesthouse. At the entrance of the corridor there was an
iron gate. Entering the gate, there was a suite. Iron bars were installed on
every window of the suite. There were two guards in the room where I was held.
These guards were called in from all the local substations by turns. Besides,
there was one policewoman who was sent in by the police sub-bureau. She would
even follow me when I went to the toilet. Outside the iron gate there was also a
guard who was in charge of locking and unlocking the gate. Security for the
entire third floor was very tight. The deputy head of the national security
division of the police sub-bureau once said to me proudly, "It's impossible
to escape from here." I knew that Dafa also contains extraordinary
abilities and didn't take her words very seriously. When I was first arrested my heart was not that stable and all kinds of human
thoughts welled up in my mind. Because I was badly beaten up when I went to
Beijing to rectify the Fa I therefore had a very noticeable attachment to the
fear of being tortured. The thought that I would be sentenced, or could I endure
the torture, frequently appeared in my mind. I was also very weak willed at the
time. Under such circumstances I failed my test and confessed where I had stayed
so the house I had stayed was searched. I felt remorse for failing the test and
when I dug deep inside myself I found that the root cause was that I failed to
treat the issue from the perspective of the Fa and gave tacit consent to the
evil persecution. I kept telling myself that cultivation was a very serious
matter and I had to use righteous thoughts to deal with everything and totally
negate all the persecution arranged by the old forces. I had attachments but
these attachments should not become the excuses for sabotaging the Fa. I am a Fa
rectification period Dafa disciple and therefore would only follow the path
arranged for me and would at all times do well the three things required by
Teacher. Members of the national security division of the police sub-bureau came to
question me again. I told them that I made a mistake and could not make any more
mistakes. I had no intention of cooperating with them any further and began to
clarify the truth to them. Since then, I clarified the truth to whomever I met.
The guards work in shifts and I talked to them shift after shift. When the
people from the police sub-bureau questioned me I clarified the truth with them.
The fear mentality was gradually easing and my heart was filled with compassion.
Teacher said, "If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid
will cease to exist."("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)") The
surroundings had also changed with the change of my heart. In the beginning they
told me how they forced Falun Dafa practitioners to sit in an iron chair while
they were handcuffed from behind. Later on when people from the city "610
office" [a bureau specifically created by the Chinese government to
persecute Falun Gong. It has absolute power over each level of administration in
the Party, as well as over the political and judiciary branches] came, I
pointed out that it was illegal to extort a confession with torture and whoever
did this must assume legal responsibility. They denied they had ever beaten
people. I said I had been badly beaten up, the head of the "610
office" then tried to shift the responsibility onto others by saying,
"Whoever did this I will deal with him." This showed that the evil
factors are getting weaker, so they dare not do bad things openly. During the detention, besides clarifying the truth I spent most of the time
reciting the Fa and sending righteous thoughts. Teacher said, "If you are
still unclear about what a Fa-rectification disciple is, you won't be able to
step forward in the current tribulation, and you will be led by the human
world's pursuit of comfort to 'enlighten' along an evil path." I am a Fa-rectification
period Dafa disciple, so to help Teacher rectify the Fa and eliminate evil is my
duty. Since the evil gave me the chance to eliminate them I must make full use
of the opportunity to do so. Policemen from the city police bureau and sub
bureau were all there and it was the best opportunity for me to send forth
righteous thoughts in close proximity. On the 20th day of my detention they notified my family to send in
some daily necessities and money, saying that they would be sending me to a
detention center. Prior to this I had been detained secretly. I knew this was an
arrangement made by the evil to interfere with, and to try and make me waver in
my righteous belief in Dafa. At that moment Teacher's Fa appeared in my mind,
"Just by having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all
situations." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment") I had a
new understanding of this sentence and I silently asked the Teacher to
strengthen my supernormal powers. I sent forth righteous thoughts continuously and whenever an evil thought
appeared in my mind I rejected it instantly. Teacher said, "But it's not
that you can't get rid of it. As I just said, even if sometime in history you
did sign some kind of pact, if today your righteous thoughts are very strong,
you don't recognize it, and you insist on not taking part in it, then you can in
fact reject it." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in
Philadelphia, U. S. A.") I was taken to the detention center. Upon passing
through the iron gate I reminded myself that I should not waver but resolutely
reject any arrangement made by the old forces, and firmly believe in our Teacher
and Dafa. I also had the thought that I should not be locked up there because a
lot of things were waiting for me to do out there. After some twists and turns,
the detention center refused to accept me because I had scabies. When I walked
out of the detention center I knew it was Teacher who had helped me. This
escaping from custody heightened my belief. The head of the national security
division of the police sub-bureau still did not want to drop the idea of sending
me to the detention center. He said to me, "Will you confess? If you don't
I'll have to send you in." I smiled lightly, knowing that what ordinary
people say does not count. He made a few phone calls to look for his connections
with no result. And finally he said, "OK, let's go back first and we'll try
it tomorrow." I was taken back to the brainwashing center. On my way I
observed my surroundings carefully once more and made up my mind as to the best
way to escape. Upon returning to the brainwashing center I continued to send forth righteous
thoughts to eliminate the evil in the area. Three days later, early in the
morning, I walked out of the center nobly and righteously right under the eyes
of three guards. At present I am doing what I should do. From this incident I have truly enlightened that the idea that being arrested
means you have to be tortured and doing truth-clarification work means you have
to be arrested and sentenced to imprisonment or forced labor is nothing more
than human notions. Teacher said, " 'The Buddha's Fa is most profound, among all the theories on the
world it is the most intricate and extraordinary science. In order to explore
this domain, humankind must fundamentally change its conventional thinking.
Otherwise, the truth of the universe will forever remain a mystery to mankind,
and everyday people will forever crawl within the boundary delimited by their
own ignorance." ("Lunyu" from Zhuan Falun) Only by making fundamental changes in our conventional mentality can we more
thoroughly reject the arrangements made by the old forces and firmly go on the
path which was arranged by our Teacher and help to rectify the Fa. At the same
time, through this lesson I have learned the seriousness of cultivation in the
Fa rectification period. If I cannot be strict with myself that means I am
irresponsible to myself, to all sentient beings and even more so to Dafa. I did
walk out of the evil's den but there was no joy in my heart. I have discovered
more of my shortcomings and the reason why I had been arrested. It was Teacher's
merciful blessing that I was given another chance to do well. I must strive to
do everything well. Posting date: 10/25/2003
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