(Clearwisdom.net) Yesterday I went by the local forced labor camp to become familiar with its surroundings. I chose an area where I could use a can of spray paint to write signs clarifying the truth about Falun Gong.* After I came back home, I made plans for going back there at night to paint the truth-clarification signs.

During the process of making this decision, I asked myself a series of questions:

"Am I frightened?" I answered, "I am not." The location where I chose to write the words were on the walls near the front gate of the labor camp. It is precisely because there is evil at the forced labor camp that I would go there to expose the evil.

"Am I scared of losing my job, since I would lose my job if I am caught?" I answered, "I am not." "Am I scared of my home being ransacked?" I answered, "I am not." "Am I scared of death?" I answered reciting Master Li's poem,

"And with no attachment to living or dying, He walks his path of Fa-rectification openly and nobly" ("Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions").

I would go to validate Dafa, with no attachment to living or dying.

"Am I scared of the cruel torture in the labor camp?" I answered, "I am not scared of even death, much less anything else."

"Will I run away if someone sees me writing the truth clarification words?" I answered, "I will not run away. Even if they see me, I would finish the writing."

"How will I act if I am arrested?" I answered, "If I am arrested, I will walk out of detention in a dignified manner. If I am sent to the labor camp, I will then validate the Fa there."

At that time, the question, "What if I am arrested?" kept coming to my mind. I then thought that I would just walk out of the jail. The question came to my mind many times. Later, I realized that it was not right to think this way. How could I have this thought? I would not be arrested. If I always considered what I would do if I were arrested, was that not the same as acknowledging the old forces' arrangements? I would not be arrested and there exists no "what if I am arrested." I would just go to validate the Fa and expose the evil. I would not be arrested; this kind of thing would not happen to me. Master Li's words resounded in my mind: "And with no attachment to living or dying, He walks his path of Fa-rectification openly and nobly" ("Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions").

In the evening, after I ate dinner, I set off for the labor camp on my bicycle. After the recent snow, the roads in northeastern China were very slippery. On the way, I fell down many times. (Generally, I am very skilled at riding a bicycle, but later I understood that I kept falling down because my mind was not calm.) After I fell down a few more times, I told myself that I would go to validate the Fa and expose the evil no matter how dangerous it was. I wanted to follow the Fa. What was I coming here for? Was it true that I came to assist Master in rectifying the Fa? Am I coming to endure ordinary people's hardships? Did I go to the labor camp to establish my mighty virtue and endure tests? My wisdom told me that I should go forward and not draw back. With these thoughts, I reached the labor camp.

When I got there, I saw that just opposite the labor camp gate was a building, and on the side of the building, there was a wall. I decided that this was the place where I would write. I took out the spray can and started to work. Because the words were very big, for each stroke, I had to spray several times. Initially, my heart was not very calm, but I gradually calmed down. I wrote the five big characters of "Falun Dafa is good" on the wall. Then I started to ride my bicycle home. Just after I got on my bicycle, I saw a motorcycle coming towards me from the labor camp. (I knew this because the labor camp is in a suburb, and there are rarely people traveling at night. Furthermore, there is only a narrow road to and from the labor camp.) The motorcycle's light was on, and it was coming toward me. At that time, my mind was very peaceful and I did not get agitated. I rode toward the motorcycle. The person on the motorcycle showed no reaction. I rode away from the labor camp, and I did not fall once on my way back home. I thanked Master in my heart for his compassion and protection. I successfully returned home.

After I came back, I realized that nothing would happen as long as I walked my path righteously. I should examine what mentalities I have. I hope that every fellow practitioner will maintain a righteous mind. What are we coming for? Are we coming to live as ordinary people? Are we coming to accept the so-called tests of the old forces? Or are we coming to assist Master in rectifying the Fa? I hope that every fellow practitioner will carefully think about our purpose for coming here.

This is my personal understanding; please point out anything that is not right.

December 15, 2003