Rooting out Anxiety and Attachments
(Clearwisdom.net) While clarifying the truth and revealing
the evil specter of the Communist Party recently, I gained some understanding
that I would like to share. All of my understandings and experiences were
originally written in my journal. Later on, I felt that it might be helpful if I
share my understandings of some problems with other practitioners, so I decided
to publicize them for mutual encouragement. Although I'm firm in my belief in
Dafa, due to my limited level, I hope that our fellow practitioners will
compassionately point out any faults I may have. Journal entry for February 23, 2005 Wednesday 23 12:39 Since Master's new article "Turning the Wheel Towards the Human
World" was published, I feel the enormous responsibility of being a Dafa
disciple and I want with my whole heart to save people that have been poisoned
by the Communist culture. However, I have not been able to achieve a very good
effect. My relatives and colleagues did not really understand why they should
renounce their Party membership. Some of them noted that they had not
technically been League members for a long time, so why should they still make a
statement? My heart was in turmoil. In the meantime I have had some problems in all aspects, and I feel exhausted
mentally and physically: After carefully looking inward, I realized that not studying the Fa
diligently caused so many complications, and thereby affected my ability to do
the three things well. In the article, "Drive
Out Interference," Master said, "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa
can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." After rooting out the deep reasons for these problems, I rectified myself: Forming new attachments: I felt that I'd already cultivated pretty well, and
I'd done some tasks of truth clarification: clarifying the truth face-to-face;
producing and distributing CDs; printing and posting up fliers for
truth-clarification; editing the "Nine Commentaries on the Chinese
Communist Party" text and sending emails;
distributing software on breaking through the internet blockade; etc. However,
there was an attachment of selfishness in my thoughts. I felt that I'd
cultivated very well and that there should not be any more karma-elimination
symptoms in my body. Thus, I realized that I must immediately eliminate new
attachments as they arise. 2. Worrying about my future and career After deeply looking inward, I found that I was not firm enough and did not
believe in Master and the Fa adequately. My life is a life of cultivation. Why
should I worry about my future and career? The path of Dafa disciples was
arranged by Master. Should I worry that it might not be arranged well? I looked
inward and found where I had not done so well. Originally, I thought that I
firmly believed in Master and the Fa; however I had not truly followed through
in my actions in accordance with the Fa. I should keep studying the Fa and
completely deny the arrangement of fear and interference. 3. Seeing that a lot of people who joined the Communist evil organizations
still don't know their dangerous circumstances, I felt anxious and didn't know
where to start. I first thought that I should strengthen my faith to in order to save this
group. Large numbers of people in the CCP are predestined people, although there
is some difficulty in getting them to realize the evil of the CCP in a short
time. But as Dafa practitioners if we lose confidence in saving them, then it's
hopeless for them. I could refuse to do it, just because it's difficult, but the
more difficult the task is, the firmer I should be. When I'm not achieving the desired effect by clarifying the truth or
revealing the nature of the CCP, I should not feel impatient. I should not feel
pressured because its taking a little more time. I should discuss my own
experiences and help them understand. To clarify the truth to my colleagues and
relatives, especially to encourage them to renounce the Communist Party or the
Communist Youth League, takes skill and patience. If I'm not careful, I could
make them misunderstand and think that we are getting political. To disclose the
Communist evil spirit and encourage people to renounce membership in these
organizations, we should choose and prepare necessary materials carefully,
according to people's different backgrounds. Master said, "I hope you will complete--soberly, rationally, and with righteous
thoughts--your journey to Consummation." ("New Year's
Greetings" February 9, 2005) One cannot do well if he does things unconsciously or unwisely. From now on,
I should be very careful and deliberate. February 23, 2005
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