By a practitioner from Yunnan Province, China

(Clearwisdom.net) Because I was old enough to get married, my family members, friends, and colleagues were all urging me to do so. As time went on, I was affected by their mentality, and started to look everywhere for a woman who would be suitable for me. I understood clearly that marriage requires karmic relationships. However, I did not let go of my human heart, and instead started being attached to it. Consequently, the more I looked, the less I accomplished and the more severe the conflicts became.

This year, I had an opportunity to purchase a piece of land, which was quite fine in its size and location. Since this piece of land was hard to get, that is according to ordinary people's standards, many people wanted it. My obtaining the piece of land made my family members quite happy. They switched their previous focus of urging me to get married to the discussion of building a house. I was feeling quite happy about it since they stopped bothering me. Consequently, I sank into the trivial details of building the house, including how the house should be structured and how the house should be set up for different functions, etc. Sometimes, in order to find some materials, I spent days searching. I was busy doing this and that, and started to consider the Fengshui of the house. I even spent a long time considering whether I should get a dog as a pet. Much time was wasted on things like that. Due to the lack of sufficient funds, I needed to take out a loan. I was even thinking of taking a loan for a certain amount first before beginning to slowly pay it back, and also thought of buying a car after the house was built. The ordinary heart of pursuing comfort immediately filled my entire body. Many things I was doing deviated far from the Fa and I lagged way behind in doing the three things, thereby affecting fellow practitioners' clarifying the truth.

Upon hearing fellow practitioners' reminders, I realized that I had totally become an ordinary person. I always failed to treat myself as a cultivator. I also identified many attachments, especially my attachment to getting married, to living a comfortable life, to time, and to lust and desire. My faith in Teacher and in Dafa was very limited. I had an attachment to fear, and thereby was unable to totally entrust Teacher with my future. Yesterday, when I was studying the Fa, these attachments were brought up to me, one by one, as clear as if they were all in front of my eyes. It was as if I was cleaning up by scooping dirt from the surface of water. As I continued to study, one attachment after another disappeared completely. Now I know how to handle everything. I am no longer attached to getting married, but letting everything be arranged by Teacher. It is certain to me now that I cannot get a dog as a pet, or raise any other animals. It is also clear to me that the construction and decoration of the house shall be based upon my financial level. As to taking a loan, my starting point shall be righteous and I shall pay off the loan as soon as possible. Other things, such as Fengshui, etc., are all low-level things that need to be totally tossed out. I shall truly let my future be taken care of by Teacher, and I will calm down and do the three things well. Since yesterday, I feel that I have changed into a different person. Today, everything I am doing feels like a new start.

Posting date: 12/6/2006
Original article date: 12/6/2006
Category: Practitioners' Insights
Translated on 11/28/2006
Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2006/11/23/143020.html

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