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Comfort Wears Down The Will By Jingwu (a practitioner from Mainland China)
(Clearwisdom.net) After reading fellow practitioners' articles on
removing fundamental attachments, I have been looking unceasingly for my own
fundamental attachments. I found them by chance when I chatted with my neighbor.
I said, "I only seek a harmonious, commonplace, and peaceful life." On
the surface, such request is not of a high level, but for a Dafa practitioner it
reveals a deeply hidden attachment and is dangerous. It diverted me for many
years and provided the old forces with the opportunities for persecution. To put it simply, do I seek harmonious life? The old forces manipulated my
husband to have an extramarital affair. Do I seek a commonplace life? The old
forces manipulated my child to behave unreasonably. Do I seek a peaceful life?
The old forces manipulated my husband and child to squander all of our money. My
husband went so far as to spend money from a loan. As a result, our family was
in turmoil. My xinxing slid down and I was both physically
and mentally worn out. Thanks to Teacher's grace, I found my fundamental
attachment at last. I then removed it immediately. I behaved all the time
according to Teacher's requirement, "If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of
mind, when you run into problems you'll handle them well because it will give
you space as a buffer."(Zhuan Falun, 2003 Translation Version) I thought highly of others' merits and little of their shortcomings. After I
truly attained that state of mind, both my husband and child made favorable
turns. My husband gained a new understanding of Dafa, and they both helped and
supported me with Fa-rectification issues. My xinxing improved further. After my life became harmonious, however, I stopped forging ahead diligently.
I was restricted by some kind of force and became foolish. After I realized this
state, I just felt anxious. When exchanging thoughts with fellow practitioners,
I lamented that I did not study the Fa or practice the exercises enough, and I
could not keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification. I just could not
overcome that force, which held me very tightly and prevented me from studying
the Fa, practicing the exercises, and clarifying the truth about
Dafa. I just indulged in creature comforts. I calmed down and repeatedly looked for the reason. Finally I found the
ridiculous attachment of comfort, which had been taken advantage of by the old
forces. After experiencing all kinds of interference, I gained a stable life and
was unwilling to give it up. As a result, the attachment was imperceptibly
aggravated. The stronger my attachment, the happier the old forces felt. It
gradually destroyed my will and made me apathetic. The fact that I was a Dafa
disciple during the Fa-rectification period faded from my memory. I lost my
direction and righteous thoughts. The old forces' ultimate goal was to destroy
me. I could not help but put my palms together. Tears ran down my cheeks. I was
affected by the grand grace of Teacher. I know I must thoroughly deny the arrangements of the
old forces, remove all kinds of attachments, strengthen my righteous thoughts,
and follow the path arranged by Teacher. January 7, 2007 Posting date: 1/30/2007
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