Comfort Wears Down The Will

By Jingwu (a practitioner from Mainland China)

(Clearwisdom.net) After reading fellow practitioners' articles on removing fundamental attachments, I have been looking unceasingly for my own fundamental attachments. I found them by chance when I chatted with my neighbor. I said, "I only seek a harmonious, commonplace, and peaceful life." On the surface, such request is not of a high level, but for a Dafa practitioner it reveals a deeply hidden attachment and is dangerous. It diverted me for many years and provided the old forces with the opportunities for persecution.

To put it simply, do I seek harmonious life? The old forces manipulated my husband to have an extramarital affair. Do I seek a commonplace life? The old forces manipulated my child to behave unreasonably. Do I seek a peaceful life? The old forces manipulated my husband and child to squander all of our money. My husband went so far as to spend money from a loan. As a result, our family was in turmoil. My xinxing slid down and I was both physically and mentally worn out. Thanks to Teacher's grace, I found my fundamental attachment at last. I then removed it immediately. I behaved all the time according to Teacher's requirement,

"If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of mind, when you run into problems you'll handle them well because it will give you space as a buffer."(Zhuan Falun, 2003 Translation Version)

I thought highly of others' merits and little of their shortcomings. After I truly attained that state of mind, both my husband and child made favorable turns. My husband gained a new understanding of Dafa, and they both helped and supported me with Fa-rectification issues. My xinxing improved further.

After my life became harmonious, however, I stopped forging ahead diligently. I was restricted by some kind of force and became foolish. After I realized this state, I just felt anxious. When exchanging thoughts with fellow practitioners, I lamented that I did not study the Fa or practice the exercises enough, and I could not keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification. I just could not overcome that force, which held me very tightly and prevented me from studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and clarifying the truth about Dafa. I just indulged in creature comforts.

I calmed down and repeatedly looked for the reason. Finally I found the ridiculous attachment of comfort, which had been taken advantage of by the old forces. After experiencing all kinds of interference, I gained a stable life and was unwilling to give it up. As a result, the attachment was imperceptibly aggravated. The stronger my attachment, the happier the old forces felt. It gradually destroyed my will and made me apathetic. The fact that I was a Dafa disciple during the Fa-rectification period faded from my memory. I lost my direction and righteous thoughts. The old forces' ultimate goal was to destroy me.

I could not help but put my palms together. Tears ran down my cheeks. I was affected by the

grand grace of Teacher. I know I must thoroughly deny the arrangements of the old forces, remove all kinds of attachments, strengthen my righteous thoughts, and follow the path arranged by Teacher.

January 7, 2007

Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2007/1/9/146378.html

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