Comfort Wears Down The Will
By Jingwu (a practitioner from Mainland China)
(Clearwisdom.net) After reading fellow practitioners' articles on
removing fundamental attachments, I have been looking unceasingly for my own
fundamental attachments. I found them by chance when I chatted with my neighbor.
I said, "I only seek a harmonious, commonplace, and peaceful life." On
the surface, such request is not of a high level, but for a Dafa practitioner it
reveals a deeply hidden attachment and is dangerous. It diverted me for many
years and provided the old forces with the opportunities for persecution. To put it simply, do I seek harmonious life? The old forces manipulated my
husband to have an extramarital affair. Do I seek a commonplace life? The old
forces manipulated my child to behave unreasonably. Do I seek a peaceful life?
The old forces manipulated my husband and child to squander all of our money. My
husband went so far as to spend money from a loan. As a result, our family was
in turmoil. My xinxing slid down and I was both physically
and mentally worn out. Thanks to Teacher's grace, I found my fundamental
attachment at last. I then removed it immediately. I behaved all the time
according to Teacher's requirement, "If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of
mind, when you run into problems you'll handle them well because it will give
you space as a buffer."(Zhuan Falun, 2003 Translation Version) I thought highly of others' merits and little of their shortcomings. After I
truly attained that state of mind, both my husband and child made favorable
turns. My husband gained a new understanding of Dafa, and they both helped and
supported me with Fa-rectification issues. My xinxing improved further. After my life became harmonious, however, I stopped forging ahead diligently.
I was restricted by some kind of force and became foolish. After I realized this
state, I just felt anxious. When exchanging thoughts with fellow practitioners,
I lamented that I did not study the Fa or practice the exercises enough, and I
could not keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification. I just could not
overcome that force, which held me very tightly and prevented me from studying
the Fa, practicing the exercises, and clarifying the truth about
Dafa. I just indulged in creature comforts. I calmed down and repeatedly looked for the reason. Finally I found the
ridiculous attachment of comfort, which had been taken advantage of by the old
forces. After experiencing all kinds of interference, I gained a stable life and
was unwilling to give it up. As a result, the attachment was imperceptibly
aggravated. The stronger my attachment, the happier the old forces felt. It
gradually destroyed my will and made me apathetic. The fact that I was a Dafa
disciple during the Fa-rectification period faded from my memory. I lost my
direction and righteous thoughts. The old forces' ultimate goal was to destroy
me. I could not help but put my palms together. Tears ran down my cheeks. I was
affected by the grand grace of Teacher. I know I must thoroughly deny the arrangements of the
old forces, remove all kinds of attachments, strengthen my righteous thoughts,
and follow the path arranged by Teacher. January 7, 2007
Chinese version available at
http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2007/1/9/146378.html
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