(Clearwisdom.net) I am a practitioner approaching my 80s. I know it is Teacher who has given me a second chance in life. Ever since I started the practice in 1995, I have been grateful from the bottom of my heart to our venerable Teacher for my salvation. I was frail and ill in my youth. My husband passed away when I was middle aged and left me with three young children. I raised my children while enduring all kinds of hardships, which resulted in different illnesses in my old age. My place of employment fell on hard times, leaving me for years without wages. The kind of life we lived back then was unspeakably harsh. It was in my moment of greatest despair that I attained Dafa! I had no money for medical treatment, and I stumbled upon a qigong practice site in the park on my way home. At the time my only concern was to get my illness treated, and I entered with some hesitation and suspicion. Would Teacher really look after me? On the fourth day my celestial eye was opened and I was able to see Falun. I knew then and there that Falun Gong wasn't some ordinary qigong. From that day onward I developed an unshakable faith in Dafa, and my illnesses--high blood pressure, heart disease, Alzheimer's, a stroke, eye pain, etc.--all went away.
Even in the early stages of practicing Dafa, I experienced the might of Dafa and the feeling of a light body that was free of illness. I have cultivated for 15 years under Teacher's compassion and care. Next, I would like to share my experiences with fellow practitioners of how I passed the ordeals of my karma-inflicted illness.
On the first day of June 2009, my head suddenly felt heavy and I was dizzy, but I didn't pay it much attention. However, these conditions remained even after ten days passed. On the second day, as was my routine, I studied the Fa with my Fa study group. After the study, when I tried to get up, my feet were not steady and I felt numbness in my arms and legs, as if they stopped responding. I was helped back to my home by other practitioners. When I arrived at home, I put my palms together in front of Teacher's portrait. I said, "Teacher, please save me. I don't acknowledge the persecution from the Old Forces. Thoroughly disintegrate the evil demons and ghosts persecuting me. A cultivator has no illnesses. Teacher, please grant me strength." At the time I exhibited symptoms of a stroke, and the right half of my body was unresponsive. I wasn't fooled by these false conditions, and I went to my daughter (also a Dafa practitioner) to exchange experiences. My daughter said, "Mom, you have to really search within yourself. You must strengthen your main consciousness." I was able to find that I had not let go of my affection for my relatives. Several days previously I had received news that a nephew in my in-law's family wanted to sell their old home and move his parents in with him. I was heartbroken when I learned this. I wondered if I would still have an in-law family if my nephew really did sell the house. If I tried to visit my in-law family again, who would I visit? How great of an attachment was that? I clearly knew this was an attachment, but I still felt uncomfortable about all of it. I also had an attachment of not wanting to let others speak, and I also liked to interrupt people. This time when I searched inward, I really found quite a lot of attachments.
Through Fa study, sending forth righteous thoughts, and experience-sharing with other practitioners, I quickly discovered my follies. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all evil factors responsible for persecuting me. At the time I couldn't hold my hand upright when sending forth righteous thoughts, and I couldn't lift my right hand when I practiced the exercises. I wasn't able to hold the right postures and positions for any of the five sets of exercises, but I still refused to let any of this interfere with me. Every day, I would try to eliminate all the negative conditions facing me. At the same time, there was constant interference from my relatives. My son, daughter-in-law, and grandson all came by to try to persuade me to go to the hospital for medical treatment. My son griped, "Even in your old age you still run outside in this heat; I don't think even a young person could take it. Day and night you're always busy (studying the Fa). Even young people would have been worn out." I patiently replied, "Your mother is fine. I've never let my age bother me. We cultivators view problems from a different perspective. If I couldn't practice Dafa in my old age, what else would I do? I probably wouldn't even last without someone else to take care of me. But now I no longer need you to look after me anymore. You take care of yourselves, and I promise things will be fine for me." My children could not dissuade me, so they called me everyday to make sure everything was fine. On the third day I was able to slowly walk on my own, and after one week my body had fully recovered. My family at home have all seen the miracles that Dafa has performed on me. It was with Teacher's support and the help of my fellow practitioners that I was able to pass the trial of this karma-inflicted illness.
The above is a bit of my personal experience in cultivation. In the course of my cultivation I still have many shortcomings. I will definitely continue to rid myself of attachments, catch up to the pace of Fa rectification, complete my great prehistoric vow, and follow Teacher in achieving consummation.
January 15th, 2010
