A Doctor's Five Years of Cultivation Experience
(Clearwisdom.net) I am a doctor who obtained the Fa in 2006. I would like to share my cultivation experiences during the past several years.
1. Obtaining the Fa
I heard about Dafa back in 1996. At the time, I thought it was just another qigong that was for healing and fitness, so I did not pay attention to it.
Ten years later, I had the heart of wanting to cultivate. Master started watching over me.
Although I had not started studying the Fa yet, I already experienced many miracles. I could feel my celestial eye being opened: I felt as if I were riding a horse or driving a car, rushing outward. When I closed my eyes, I could see things like flowers blossoming in a video being played in fast forward. “The red color will start out flat, and then it will suddenly stand out in the middle and turn constantly.” (“Lecture Two”, Zhuan Falun) Following that, Master arranged the opportunity for me to obtain the Fa.
I met my friend A, who I had not seen for many years, on August 17, 2006. He used to be the local Dafa assistant and was sentenced and lost his job. He had experienced tribulations, but he seemed to have become more mature. After interacting with him for a while, I felt that a practitioner's realm is different from that of non-practitioners. That purity and wonderfulness made me want to learn and practice Dafa. With his help, I read Master's lectures and felt that I improved significantly. While I was meditating, I was able to see golden gods and a Buddhist temple with many small Buddhas. When I looked further, I saw that the top of the Buddha temple became the head of a Buddha statue. While meditating, I alway experienced the different states described in Zhuan Falun, such as my head nodding or turning to one side, my body uplifted, etc. My diseases, such as allergic rhinitis, chronic pharyngitis, and mammary gland hyperplasia all disappeared.
I spent all my spare time in Fa-study. I copied Hong Yin and Hong Yin II into small notebooks to have with me all the time so that I could recite the Fa at any time. It was a very wonderful time because I was able to completely melt into the Fa.
2. Cultivating the Heart
Once during a morning meeting, the managers were assigning tasks to everybody. I was thinking, “You are the worst at doing the work. Nowadays, the managers are not good role models...” All of a sudden, Master's Fa came to mind,
“While teaching the Fa before, I discussed a principle. To illustrate the issue, one thing that they say in the CCP's Party-culture is, "Before you advise others to do well, you have to first do well yourself." So after some people have done something bad and others point it out to them, they say, "You haven't done well yourself. Don't tell me what to do.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference”)
I immediately realized that cultivation is to cultivate oneself; why would I look at others? I realized that this was a human notion that needed to be eliminated. At night, in a dream, I saw that in my room there was a person with a dark cape who was trying to throw some black substances at me. I felt that if I was hit, I would either die or be hurt badly. However, I raised my hands without hesitation to block them and shouted at the same time, “Master, please help me.” Right when I was in contact with it, I heard a loud sound. That black-caped person exploded. I walked out of the room and flew up, I was so excited. I realized that was a true reflection of what happened earlier that day. Practitioners should measure every single thought with the Fa, and we should eliminate anything that is not assimilating with the Fa.
I borrowed Minghui Weekly 2003 to 2006 editions from fellow practitioners and started reading them. The experience sharing articles were very helpful for me. I had a thought: “Wouldn't it be great if I could get onto the Minghui website to read all the new articles every day and catch up with Fa-rectification!” Master saw my heart. Soon after that, I found the software and was able to get onto the website easily. I have been able to get on the website even during the most critical times, when restriction is the tightest. I am able to read all of Master's new lectures and to print brochures.
Prior to my cultivation, I used to be a very selfish person. Master said,
“Buddhism believes in the principle of karmic retribution. One’s life is arranged according to one’s karma. No matter how capable you are, if you do not have de, perhaps you will have nothing in this life. You think that another person is good at nothing, but he has a lot of de. He could become a high-ranking official or make a big fortune. An ordinary person cannot see this point and always believes that he should do exactly what he is able to. Therefore, he competes and fights all his life with a badly-wounded heart. He might feel very bitter and tired, always finding things unfair. Being unable to eat or sleep well, he feels sad and disappointed. When he gets older, he will end up in poor health and all kinds of illnesses will surface.” (“Lecture Seven”, Zhuan Falun)
I know to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I know that everything occurring in this world has a reason. All suffering and unhappiness is caused by our own actions. If we face any conflict, we should always search within first and correct ourselves. Now, my friends all know that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Seeing the changes in me have helped them see the wonderfulness of Dafa. They quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
When I obtained the Fa, my mother also started studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. However, she was not able to firmly believe in Master and the Fa, plus she was not able to eliminate her attachment to curing her diseases. So she went to look for witches to cure her diseases, and she attracted animal spirits. During that time period, she was not mentally stable and could not fall asleep at night.
My uncle and aunt came to the hospital to send forth righteous thoughts with me. Later, we asked a fellow practitioner to help take care of her. Shortly after that, my mother fully recovered. Without Master's help and protection, my family and I would not have passed through this tribulation. At that time, I had only obtained the Fa for several months. I did not know how to handle different things the right way. But I only had one thought: “Nothing could change my determination to cultivate.”
I was running between the hospital, my work, and my family. My mother-in-law, who suffered from Alzheimer's disease, also came back at that time. I felt significant pressure. Once, on my way back home from the hospital, a big truck passed by me so close that it shook my motorcycle. I thought, “Master, if I die like this, everything would be over.” I immediately felt the pressure on my shoulder was lifted. I cried, because I knew that our benevolent Master endured the karma for me once again. Through that tribulation, I have grown more from using the perspective of the Fa.
When I first walked into the Fa, it was practitioner A's noble personality that strongly attracted me. I developed a strong dependency on him, and I admired him. I ran everything by him. Later, I heard that after he was “transformed” by the evil in prison, he also helped “transform” other practitioners. Although he came back home, he still had some issues in his cultivation.
I had the thought several times to stop interacting with him. In the past, I felt I was able to easily let go of human emotion, but I did so because my feelings were hurt, and I became cold. And deep in my heart, I still yearned for the so-called human happiness. I still had a hidden attachment to lust. These attachments led me towards a dangerous edge. When we do not follow what Master taught us, we will not have the power of the Fa. My feelings towards practitioner A went from admiration and gratitude to resentment and despair, and then to today's indifference. It was my firm belief in the Fa and Master that helped me walk out of this deep quagmire. I kept reciting Zhuan Falun and reading many experience sharing articles. Master said,
“I have said that as humankind evolves to this day, everything is deteriorating. The whole society and everything in the entire universe are becoming corrupt in succession. Everything that happens to everyday people is caused by them, themselves. It is very difficult to find a righteous way or to follow a righteous way, owing to interference from various sources.” (“Lecture Five”, Zhuan Falun)
I knew I should eliminate the attachment. I kept studying the Fa and kept trying to eliminate it, but I always felt that I did not get rid of it completely. I started doubting myself. I opened Zhuan Falun and saw that Master said,
“In fact, let me tell you that they do not have correct thoughts to guide themselves, and it will not be easy for them to quit that way. As a practitioner, why don’t you take it as an attachment to be abandoned, and see if you can quit. I advise everyone that if you truly want to practice cultivation you should quit smoking from now on, and it is guaranteed that you can quit. In the field of this class, no one thinks of smoking a cigarette. If you want to quit, it is guaranteed that you can do it. When you smoke a cigarette again, it will not taste right.” (“Lecture Seven”, Zhuan Falun)
I could not stop my tears. Wasn't Master encouraging me to let go of my attachment to human emotion? I felt the bad substance that had been on me for a long time was eliminated, and I felt light physically and mentally.
As long as we study the Fa with our hearts and follow the Fa's standards to search within, we will be able to overcome any challenges and tribulations.
4. Telling People the Facts About Dafa
I had a strong wish: “I want to tell more people the facts about Dafa.”
Through Fa-study and my improvement, I can now validate Dafa with wisdom. To people who do not know the truth yet, I usually start with telling them the facts from a third person standpoint to help them understand the evilness of the CCP and hence help them quit the CCP. I then tell them that Falun Dafa is good. For those who are badly poisoned, I do not try to rush too much. I choose the right materials or send follow-up truth-clarification letters to them to give them the chance to learn the truth. I had a manager who, after retirement, started focusing on dancing and fitness. Three years ago when I told her the facts about Dafa, she did not seem to be interested and said, “I am not opposed to it, nor do I support it.” Several months ago, I saw her again. When I talked to her about the Tiananmen self-immolation incident, she said, “If they weren't committing suicide, why would they be so dumb to burn themselves?” I asked her, “Why would the reporters be able to capture the entire scene on a camcorder? Don't you feel that it was like a film?” She suddenly understood, “They indeed put on a show.” She immediately decided to quit the CCP, and she learned the five exercises and borrowed Zhuan Falun from me.
My father is very stubborn, and he has been deeply poisoned by the CCP. I tried not to have direct conflicts with him while telling him about Dafa and the persecution. As soon as he shows resistance, I stop and search within. In the meantime, I also try to eliminate any human notions I have developed and try to touch his heart with my compassion.
In the beginning, as soon as I started talking about the evilness of the CCP, my father became annoyed and said I was becoming political. Once I could not hold back and wanted to argue with him, so I went into another room immediately to send forth righteous thoughts. I felt that he was so stubborn that I did not want to talk to him any more. While I was sending forth righteous thoughts, Master's Fa came to mind, “Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring, Righteous thoughts can save the people in this world” (“Fa Rectifies the Cosmos”, Hong Yin II) I suddenly realized that I was holding a strong competitive mentality. Wasn't this an opportunity for me to improve? When I walked out of the room, my peaceful smile from the bottom of my heart moved my father.
My father is a doctor. He suffered from diabetes and high blood pressure. I started from that angle and told him about the miraculous effects of practicing Falun Gong in terms of healing illness and maintaining fitness. I told him, “You are my father. As your daughter, when have I ever lied to you? You and I are both doctors. We all know the effects of the current medical science for this kind of disease.” After one year's effort, my father finally was moved. Through his Fa-study and practicing the exercises, his diseases were cured, and he became very healthy. I am so thankful to Master. Co-workers and friends have all witnessed my father's change, which has helped spread the truth about Dafa. There have been six relatives and friends who have started practicing Dafa as a result of my practice.
My daughter is smart, but she is afraid of challenges, so she was not doing very well at school. But she happened to be assigned to the best junior high school. My family knows that it was good fortune brought to us by Dafa. My daughter struggled with math, so we hired a math tutor for her for one year, but it did not help. I discussed it with her, “We will stop hiring a tutor, and instead we will study one lecture of the Fa every day.” Just like that, we studied the Fa together for over a year. She did not have to spend more time on her school work, but she improved significantly and jumped to the top ten in her class.
My daughter received 100% in the recent math unit, which was first place in her class. I told her, “This is the honor gods gave you.” I have a friend who is a police officer. She heard about my daughter's situation and was amazed. She also believes in Dafa and studies the Fa with her child every day. She has already helped three members in her family obtain the Fa.
When my daughter was young, she once had soup, and some broken bones in the soup got stuck in her throat. This would usually have required a medical electronic endoscope to get it out. So I told her, “Ask Master to help you.” I played Master's lecture tape for her. About 40 minutes later, I heard my daughter shouting happily, “Mom, I'm all better now. I swallowed the bone.” She felt a warm current from her stomach, and everything went back to normal.
My understanding is that the best way to thank Master is to do the three things well, tell people about Dafa, save sentient beings, and assist Master in Fa-rectification.