(Minghui.org) In March 2011, my classmate gave me software that could circumvent the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) Internet blockade. I immediately installed it and was able to visit overseas websites, including Dynaweb. It felt like I was in a different world.
As I read overseas news, I saw how different things are in China under the CCP. In the beginning the difference was hard to fully comprehend, but when I thought about what I had experienced, I knew it was true. I talked with my friends about what I read, and we had in-depth conversations. Some were indifferent and advised me to just look out for myself and enjoy life. I did more research by checking other websites, and I found that The Epoch Times coverage was truthful and very comprehensive.
That April, I went to The Epoch Times website and declared that I quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
Obtaining the Fa
In July, I went online to read the news, and by accident I opened Minghui.org. I read Teacher Li Hongzhi's new articles and was able to download the lectures in Guangzhou. At that time, I did not realize how fortunate I was.
In the summer of 2012, my father had an infection in his arm that oozed pus. He also had hypertension and diabetes. He was hospitalized, and the doctor had to carry out a special procedure to save him.
My father's health was deteriorating. He had had polio as a child and now had difficulty walking. I stayed in the hospital to take care of him and was sad to see him suffering. Later, I read some Falun Gong practitioners’ cultivation articles published on The Epoch Times—it outlined the miraculous recoveries they experienced after taking up the practice. I wished my father could practice Falun Gong so that he could suffer less. I also wanted to practice, so I started learning Falun Gong.
With this thought, Teacher pointed me to Minghui.org to download Zhuan Falun and other lectures. I started doing the five exercises based on the instructional video.
After I had practiced for only a short time, I went home and told my dad about the wonder of Falun Gong. However, my parents had been poisoned by the CCP for many years, so they misunderstood and refused to listen. At that time, I expressed my understandings of the practice as a beginner. It did not work, so I ended up leaving my parents a copy of Teacher's Fa lectures and the exercise video. I started working out of town.
Cultivating to Let Go of My Human Attachments
When I decided to truly cultivate, I ran into all kinds of interference. Teacher continued to guide me so that I could walk on the right path and remove my attachments.
Years before, I was involved in an unsuccessful love affair, which impacted me a lot. At the beginning of my cultivation practice, those painful memories resurfaced. I hated that person who did not care about my feelings. Later, from Fa study I realized that I needed to cultivate myself and do things according to the Fa.
Teacher said,
“In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, 'How can this person treat me like this?' Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work.” (Lecture Four in Zhuan Falun)
Teacher has explained the Fa so clearly, but I was stubborn and went back and forth many times for about a year. I have only now started to rid myself of resentment.
Last year, I thoroughly clarified the facts to my parents and helped them to quit the CCP.
My parents' health was poor and they always suffered a lot. Last year when I went back home for the Chinese New Year, my father had a stomachache and could not eat. Our family was very worried. I thought that it might help him if he could recite "Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!" If he truly believed it, he would be blessed. If he did not believe, I would try my best to take care of him.
I am also trying to get rid of my fear when talking to people about Falun Gong, and I am trying to get rid of other attachments such as lust, jealousy, resentment, fame, and laziness. I will study the Fa more diligently, do the three things according to Teacher's wish, and follow Teacher to reach the final destination.
Please correct me if there is something inappropriate in my understanding.
