(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa over ten years ago, and looking back over my cultivation, I found that I have experienced more self-blame and feeling guilty than I have experienced righteous thoughts. During the numerous times I shared with fellow practitioners, they constantly encouraged me to write articles to share my cultivation experience. At that time, I was attached to the notion that I had not cultivated well enough. Because of this, what I wrote in my articles had elements that had not been cultivated well, and if they had been published, it would be no different than polluting others. I did not try to pursue it further to break through another kind of "gap" and get beyond this issue. In fact, this was a reflection of my slacking off in cultivation.
Later I realized that the thing that blocked me from writing articles was my attachment to "self", and it was my fundamental attachment that had prevented me from writing articles. When I became enlightened to this, I had a brand new understanding deep within about the dignity of Dafa. My earlier understanding of cultivation and my experience appeared to be shallow when I discovered my fundamental attachment. For a few days, I was in such a state that I felt like crying at whatever I saw.
In 2007, I was illegally detained by the CCP, and because of this, the company I was working for suffered serious loss. In order to get back the profits for the company, I was involved in a lawsuit. During the proceedings, my former business partners produced false evidence for their own benefit. I realized that people today regard morality and justice as worthless in the face of personal gain. Then when I looked within, the ugly side in such people was like a mirror and a warning for me. Suddenly I had a feeling of great sympathy towards the other party that presented the false evidence, and all the human resentments I had held in my heart disappeared. From this I realised that every thought I had deep in my heart contained some impure elements at different times, and they were all based on selfishness. This was my fundamental attachment, and even when I was doing something for others, the starting point was still based on selfishness. In those few days, the practitioners around me joked, "You seem to have changed into a different person." One of them said, "I saw you shedding a hard shell." When I saw my fundamental attachment, the person who produced the false evidence called me from Hong Kong and said that he would not get involved in the matter anymore and that all the evidence was false.
I came to an understanding that writing articles was another important form in our cultivation during Fa-rectification. During the process, one needs to constantly break through gaps and let go of self; only then can one write good articles.
When I felt determined to break through the obstacle, I suddenly felt a formless sense of responsibility. In order to write the article well, I tried to measure my sharing with the yardstick of the Fa and to rectify every single thought. This was also being responsible to the Fa, and I felt that the side of me that had been cultivated was continuously suppressing the various bad elements that had been pushed in from other dimensions. I felt like I was re-experiencing a similar righteousness as when I met the requirements of a Dafa disciple after passing cultivation tribulations. This feeling emerged when I made up my mind to break through the "gaps" by writing articles, and it formed when I truly let myself melt into cooperating with the whole body as a particle of Dafa.
When I was detained in labor camps and detention centers, I wrote letters to my family that touched the hearts of many guards (who read them), my family members, friends, and colleagues. Through this silent way, I condensed in these family letters the beautiful elements that could help people learn the truth about Dafa. (I knew that the content of the letters would be searched under the rules and regulations of those facilities.) At the beginning of 2000, I was sent to a labor camp by police. The letters I wrote there aroused the attention of a prison guard. He told me he was very touched, and he even arranged a private meeting with me to talk to me about his personal problems. During the conversation, I got to know his problems and understood what part of my letter touched his heart. Later, he behaved differently from other guards and offered more help to practitioners, and he also showed his kindness in dealing with certain matters. From this I realised that every word and every action of a Dafa disciple contains power and energy. Moreover, the beautiful and kind side of Dafa disciples can rectify what is not righteous, so as to eliminate the evil and save sentient beings.
In 2007, I wrote to my wife, who was detained in a detention center. In the letters, I only talked about our everyday life and things that had happened in the past. One of her colleagues wanted to keep one of the letters, saying that she shed tears after she read the letter I wrote to my wife: "Why do the police persecute such a loving couple on the issue of Falun Gong?" When my wife returned home I got to know that in her detention center, the guards and other detainees were fighting to read my letters. After the guards read the letters, they would pass them to my wife, and they were quite moved, saying the way Falun Gong practitioners handle the feelings between husband and wife was so touching. Through this, my wife was able to persuade almost all the detainees in her cell to quit the associated organizations of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), and quite a few of them later obtained the Fa and became firm Dafa disciples. In the detention center, there was a person who was detained for drug abuse. Before she was released, she said to my wife in tears that she did not want to leave my wife and was afraid that when she went back to society she might turn bad again if she could not control herself. This same person later managed to conceal the list of names of those who quit the CCP and its associated organizations and brought it out (with the help of the righteous thoughts of Dafa disciples outside).
The old forces wanted to divide Dafa disciples, and their evil arrangements could be seen in various aspects, such as in the different locations, financial situations, abilities, persecution information, etc. Master has emphasized the importance of group Fa-study on numerous occasions. My personal understanding is that group Fa-study is perhaps the best Fa weapon Master has left with us to break through the gaps among us that had been arranged by the old forces.
Fellow practitioners, let us all give play to our ability and write down our cultivation experience of saving sentient beings and help each other avoid detour. I think that as long as our sharing is for improvement, and not for blowing one's own trumpet, this is also needed for Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples as part of their righteous thoughts and righteous actions.
